Hi all – I have been away for a bit just because I felt the need to step back and focus on me and trying to feel healthier. In situations like this, we become so focused on the negative and the issues that we are dealing with and often forget to take care of ourselves. I have not reunified with my daughter (for those of you who are wanting to know) but through mediation, I was able to secure a very good psychologist. Thus far, my daughter and I have seen her separately but the time has come . . . soon we will be having out first meeting together. I am both excited and reserved about the outcome but any step forward (even if it is a small step) is better than no step. I am often filled with fear that the rug will be pulled out from under me and my daughter will just opt to not go to the sessions and then I will have to make some other decisions. She is now almost 17 years old . . . this happened when she was almost 14 which means I have been dealing with this for three years.
I am not entirely sure how I cope day to day but I feel like I must push forward for some reason. I understand the necessity to be healthy, stay positive and remain hopeful. After all this is my child and I will never give in to something that is inherently wrong. I have to be my daughter’s advocate in a world which often doesn’t make sense.
For those of you who are going through the same thing as me, please remember you are not alone. Do not suffer alone and please take care of yourself. Your children need you . . . but they especially need a “healthy you”.